chance : she dreams : events homeless : time’s thoughtful appraisal : bramble weeds fisting : cycling dormancy : maddening fours : bestiality : no, but it is only mankind with mankind : a great divide, the evolution itself : a different sort has become the largest sort : antlered hands : reaching for it all : et al : so many languages to say one thing: something we cannot say : mossed : worried world : dandelions breaking concrete down : crows feet : murderous clouds : a peaceful way : I read about trees growing ears : a dollop of grey : rust in her metal teeth : she catches radio songs : swallows them down : dolls partitioned into pieces and scattered throughout the reclaimed woods : houses are woods : houses are woods : there’s a forest in your room : there are foxes hiding in her hot hair : there are beasts waiting patiently as a storm at sterling crescent dusk : how to make it into nothing : this dull quiet too bright : the walls were eggshell finish : waiting for cracks to emerge : for renovation : reinvention of colour wheels : for the world to let in : for sizzle : for forks and knives : for taking back the day : for the wild oak to ride out the ultimate brackish wave : the six news : wild repetition of the same headline : names like tasteless fuzz on the tongue : cosmic freckles : this madness is a looking glass : is green sea glass : is madness alone : and pockets inside of pockets : and doors behind doors : and windows within windows : and hallways that turn into rooms : and rooms into other hallways : and bare flesh without lines : after all : there are still children : we know : we know : we can’t lead them without weapons : without trials : without tribulation : without tribes that separates us : without degrees of differences : without currency exchange : and social security this and security for that : we cannot lead with less : a man made motto : heard about a boy in the middle east burned alive: taken across this figurative and literal border to that : we cannot get it back : no : and that’s simply that :
directions : intersect : lost and found : paper pulled from hand : so many ideas into that : we could run : run with that : there was always some puzzling piece gone : there is always that kind of frustration : of others : of else : of sense and wonder : don’t mention it : a strip of camera film : a sepia negative that captured his galaxy eye : that is it : snaps : trappings : butterflies : dragonflies : moths : all in nets : pinned to cork : boxed behind a glass display : a hundred days : could turn page to a hundred years : just as well : you pinned the wings : you tried your hand at capturing some essence : iridescent dust on your thumb grounds that dead : no ghost : what makes something what it is : and not what it isn’t : I want flight : I search the airport at night : for a free ride : a way out of all that I’ve built up : a blue seam to pull : that would burst into blue cornflower : a hill that can truly scream : wake the cemetery of its slumber : and dance these bones : I imagine : prague : egypt : colours and textures and scent and light I’ve never experienced : I imagine some great chase : some losing it : and some secret memories : that I’d carry round my fingers as stones : to remind me where I’ve flown : though : poor artists stay home : home can be ancestry : I was new zealand : I came off a boat from europe : our children died with sick lungs : one of our young men jumped in front of a train with intent : no blood carried beyond that man : no essence pinned over cork : but a single archive about a tragedy : or was it bravery : I say brave : to admit your death : when the world says you’re well:
where have the bees gone : I hum out bee songs : please honey, come : it feels so utterly wrong : to have such vacancies in nature : the combs are empty tombs : are emptying gardens : emptying cupboards too : robbed gold and stolen mummies : we did this, we’re still doing this : the wind haunts pollenless : flowers all rinsed of hue : it was hard watching them all continually losing their hearts : these children know what’s going : balance on arbutus driftwood and stamp their feet into freshly manned turf : topiary maze that runs them lost : paved paths into where else : the green hearts of men : she is held : held hostage : ideals : myths : ideas : delivery : expectations : they brush her hair : she is reminded to try her best : put her best face forward : grow a tough skin but remain somehow most feminine : she swirls and cakes on the coral blush : I’m alive : livened up : spiders up her eyelashes daring : it can be easier : this way : luna moth : and mint that takes over and erases the other scents: her heels split with the smooth : the gravel way she is used to : walks barefoot around her prickled grasses : leaves the prickles in as piercings : they hiss and coo at her : she nods : she knows : she is the queen of apple woods : she is the protector from the modern world : the banks want to own her : the banks do own her : she lives indebtedly she knows death is the way to have real freedom of movement : if only to be a part of the roots of trees : and entangled in the memories of what better men:
O : how crazy beautiful : one more : once in a : O : the awe : that great long pause : puts things into perspective : folds of metal : strength beyond hands : hands tossed up : diamond dreams murky and broken : she dreams disfigured realities : left at a bus stop : stories on : she sees a man in a photo : layers of rings : and another : and a child : and she thinks how she could fall and be fallen for in just about any time : how she could have other dreams : she follows every tragedy to every street corner : as if to cradle : as if her own : as if to touch and crowd around : then cross over : flicker of glow stick blues : dilapidated barracks with carpenter’s pencil marks : woodland firefly dance jarred with glitter: cavernous when he crept past : some bleached now : some wild wood worm eaten : some dress now weather beaten : faces masked over with wrinkles : slants of birch she carves symbols into : for later on : for time to read upon : dilation of amber over the ridge above : she birthed him : half parts : whole beauty : O : that awe : she could fathom then : the shadows cast off pale white : his cerulean : lunar cycles : met sun and fit : small finger nails nervously bitten : slapped hands : side step of sorries for that : habitual : force of : habitual : habits that don’t stop : carry on past : past the past : crayon on the walls : under the paint whole crayon stories : verbose : and there were waves crashing over the fishing gulls : drownage : there was a flood of sorts : a flood of the flightless : and there is construction at the beach there : he can’t remember the path down : he recalls swimming away from the murky site : grisly lust : to a clear bright patch that glowed like a emerald way out : a shallow spot with sand to touch slow and soft : O :
over the lemons : the flavour : doesn’t register : something like italy : explosive heirloom variety : false : a blood star : that start : not the tart or sour anymore : other : alien : laughter rippling through heat waves : their beauty : lies honest : hot sassafras : jagged salt glimmered rock mounds : expanse of dark blue : the crippled weeks : fog curls : sex on the top for everyone to see : the eyes electro shock : what passion so public : so peach and with new heat : what boldness of youth : all youth : then statue and cremation : dust : what life : what heat : sea asparagus sways in its low stance : feelingly : eat or be eaten : taye berries stain like ink : the years domino : romancing this generation : that : and blonde children blossom in the strawberry hills : and the war ends : only for another to begin again :
high hopes : umbrella sky : hot air balloon sky : wishing lantern sky :
mammoth moths swarm headlights in dark seed summer nights : swathe of silk scarf they crave : circular holes : take away : take arms : take hearts : take it away from here : lime light luster : don’t say sorry : no : give grief ground : it deserves that : you moving on : let it settle down : debts that call you day and night : numbers and math you [can’t recognize : run away : stay : there’s more : stay the tides : sundial sand and yellow sky : show me the poem : antipoem : so I can die of it : violet elixir : whirligig field of crisp purple : with the answers : sinking softly : half written down : black coffee froth : long ribboned roads into jade woods : where we can hear ourselves whisper : sea froth and fresh seaweed ankle kissers : like other perfume : bottle it to know it later : no, just remember how the sea held the stars right : don’t you ever forget : hide it in the ground : that hot wood ember : those thoughts : rose hip tea : picked wild : wilder : those hips : dang : he counts her marks : the scars : he could care less how much she’s stretched : over the years : other lives : brush shoulders : perfumes overlap in the streets : conversations hive : and sting the greatest sound they’d ever heard : poems drift or dissolve : let’s leave : he : she : take it away : they : let’s go back : to : dream-weavers : let’s go back to where we don’t know a single thing and take heart : I may guess : has : have : could : but you are certain : will : it is : and how your eyes rise you up : to the first line :
present in a sudden strange place : witchery : tip-toe : crumpled : the past : this fondness for thistle fluff : can’t recall : fixed : murk : green freezie sticky : sinking mud : we imagined bird bones sunken : a marsh : lost our boots there : lost in our tiny youth there : so many sizes for the years : of we : protection in the storm : thunder lightning : petrichor dance : imaginal : marginal : image : hands impressed into clay bed : we were always in some crystal stream : tracing out its veins : all things to the four elements : blood sisters : I laugh : horsetails and ferns knee deep : close my eyes : and am lead by the hand almost anywhere : harvested fibers : blue eggshells : felt : hand spun : thistle or nettle : namely : we : them : they : relatives : glass children : blue smoke : colour bombs : and mud pie : black berry thorned : always bleeding for the sweetness too sweet and dark : tire swung oak : comet tails : we swore we weren’t human : that we couldn’t be : only passing by : you the east : I the west :
fulgurites : did you know : are : petrified lightning : some carefully dig them from the ground like potatoes and hang them as wind chimes : beautiful : I fall : where you fell : and our children will fall elsewhere : no, child : never plural : a ghost daughter : ice : is : those curls : those inevitable green poet eyes : yes : I was certain : she would be born a poet : if : if : but that storm came : and planted our fingers like lightning into the ground : so singular : no you : not : naught : hadn’t : I couldn’t fall : I could fall : I could still fall : to be that quiet : somewhere that remote and mute : with only the sound of crystal lightning :
this book is my summer getaway : this book is my summer getaway : this book is my summer getaway : this book is my summer getaway : this book is : my summer : get : away :
there are poisonous plants in the heat : don’t try it : you’d die : you’d blister over : there are snakes in the grass : c’mon now : there are turkey vultures : and bald eagles lurking for mice and cats : there are raccoon bones emerging from the erasing green : eyeless scenes : there are bees and bees and bees : so hungry : there are more wasps than there are bees : there are mosquitoes that eat you : there are hissing beetles the colour of a hologram collector card from your childhood : there are red ant hills on the trailhead : there are hummingbirds like helicopters searching out what nectar : there are wild cats so gold and mostly just curious : there are bears : and the stigma of bears : jackets your fear nicely : there is hot paved hills to skin yourself upon : there is getting lost in other roads : in other woods : there are train tracks that still haunt and hum : there are smoothed pennies and shoelaces tangled on the trestle : where we all go in the summer to remember : dangle our feet over the hundred foot drop : there are great depths : gradations of blue : green : clear : and the rumours of bodies still under the cliffs at the bottom of the lake : where we all jumped : 1 : 2 : 3 :
forgiveness : separate : adjoin : amend : amend : not owing : abandoning what maims : I would kick the waves to the moon if I could : in the face of : in the name of : and in the distance someone thinks that deeds speak loud : what is forgiveness : gestures : acts : movement on a large scale : simplify : you will not betray the dead by living without your pain : you will not disturb the sequences by slowing enough : to take note of the colourless day or how the moon is another celestial body : the sun is : and how remarkable that fact alone is : hush : what grief : what death : what forgiveness : what pain : that can’t be balanced or significantly blurred by the colourless that borrows and becomes more than any one colour itself :
there have been many men : I’ve loved : gradations : and stigma rich : blurred lines of acceptance : of what was taught : what ought : and what was forlorn : and what has to be forgot : each love has taught me : both betrayal and about fire : each love was sexed in the white heat inexplicable : sudden come : sudden go : I thought : glass love : shatter love : molten meteorite : the leaving is grand : radiant and bubbling love : save me from my loving each man : no man can have me : see : the poet : is its own love : a worm : a bird : a fossil in the sand : we are repetition : waiting for death : for some sum : enough to keep them all : and for time to dissolve us into one love : something to the last :
I only see apricot : pregnant trees bright and sour : he : she : them : they : notes in hot pockets : a means to a bigger : hip pressed stone walls : not as it seems : love is not love : his internal scent : in hers : something comes : yellow plum tree spinning in blue heat waves : one answer we tell people : one is a truth : history is our one great lie : there are only sides folding sides : crowds blistered with wanting endlessness : what costs you : a life you pause for it : smash particles : a face we finally see is sound itself shattering : what : is : it : good : for : maybe nothing : but : the : understanding : of everything : scientists tell us : and that I get whole heartedly : we cut the real view : fever : particles : and black space : her hard features : helix : all sense and sense : he : she : them : they : otherlies : try to tie down the helium hours for me : I ask one : the summer wind finally kicks up : and a crowd in the reign : I said a crown in the rain : no great weave : when your only word is :
emergency of colour/alert/urgency/stark/stop/against grading of dark/colour locked in sense/slow/the one grand fall/what colours smell of/what fall can fall for/go/
new friend : in an old friend : a stranger : spark : stones : someone just mentioned a death in the past from swallowing ground emeralds : what death : what law of attraction : how your eyes are far too blue : and you encompass my dreamscapes now : short sights of you : half sense : and how you were there all along : not far in the least : watching the same stars salt seed : a stranger takes heart : gives it too : we still don’t orbit one another : it could be too hard : that fall : too blue :
as a modern writer : I am supposed write about fevered politics : to tell you : to write your parliament : to march the streets with always pride : to protest : and contest : and compete on a stage for edginess : am not supposed to be quiet : to not to write about minds tucked in heart pockets : I am not supposed to lose time : or lose days : or lose my modern stage : or my mind : I am supposed to write about today’s tense : when is now : how long is now : and for how long is now : as though now : and our political state is the only relevance to today :
hey what would you say : if I wanted to grab your hand : I’ll study your symmetry under a tree with your head in my lap : every memory : every feeling : every thought : held : but not known :
